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Chaotic

Chaotic

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The entire event felt chaotic.  Erica was trying to decide why.  She’d planned every little detail, meticulously.  She hadn’t left anything out.  Meeting upon meeting, everything was scripted right down to the entry of the last float.  There were timers with stop- watches that indicated when each entry into the parade, whether antique car or float or band, whatever, was ushered into the line-up, cued in fact.

Nothing had gone wrong, everything was going exactly as planned, but she still felt this sense of foreboding, that something was wrong, out of place.

Glancing around the crowd, she watched people chatting, hopping, clapping hands, eagerly awaiting the show.  They were 3/4 of the way through the parade but still this feeling of chaos persisted.

It had to be her emotions.  She was raw and they were chaotic, rumbling back and forth from delight to tension to eagerness to relief.  It had to be related to her missing Dennis.  He’d always stood by her side, bolstering her up when and if anything went amiss.  This was the first parade without him.

His sense of humour, his nonchalant manner, the way he had of instantly cajoling people whose nerves were on edge, or who fought the system or wanted something different, expected better than, or simply had a tiff with another entry.

Chaotic, that certainly described her feelings without him.  Erica hadn’t accepted his demise.  The horses had broken away from their owner, he couldn’t control them and they trampled him, nearly to death.  He’d lived for three days, then died from his injuries.  She’d thought throwing herself back into the fray immediately was the answer, like getting back up on the horse, as it were.  She’d done it, overcome her fear and handled the event.

As she sat watching the carriage and horses pass by, a single tear dripped down her cheek.  Life would never be the same, nor her love of managing and setting up this parade.  When this was over, in honour of Dennis, she’d take a holiday and deal with the chaotic emotions that constantly threatened to overwhelm her.

Complicated

Complicated

Many situations may seem uncompromisingly complicated, until we unravel them.

Every complicated situation has a beginning and an end.  Some are of our own making and in our own mind, and we suddenly find the answer and wonder why we thought “it” was so complicated in the first place.

A child comes to you with knotted hair, an elastic entwined, and you settle down and carefully untangle the webs nest gently moving the offending piece of elastic until the knot is gone and the hair becomes tangle free.

Complicated is a puzzle.  We start somewhere, anywhere, and work our way back and forth until we find a beginning and an end result that makes sense. Suddenly, whatever confounded us, is no longer complicated.

The universe is complicated spectacularly brilliantly.  Scientists have thought pondered examined and puzzled on it’s make up eventually finding startling results that create answers and often even more questions.  Still the quest goes on.

Relationships get complicated when we don’t understand another persons point of view or stand on a topic or situation of extreme value to  us.  Suddenly it’s complicated. Why don’t they understand? Emotions get in the way walls go up suddenly we aren’t speaking freely any more fearing perhaps a confrontation or negative response.  The result, “it’s complicated.”

In reality, complications are either solved and answers found to our satisfaction, or we are in a position to understand it or we stop moving freely.

Dramatic

Dramatic

An amazing word that encompasses so many variables.  It can be a person who lives for drama and wears you out or can relate to a dramatic event in our life that suddenly becomes heightened.

What is more delightful than a dramatic sunrise, or sunset or perhaps waves crashing on the shore in a dramatic storm. What of an amazing mountain range that compels your eye to dramatic snow covered peaks.

Dramatic lighting in a photograph (whether it relates to an object, scene, or person) can instantly change your perception of any of the above.

Dramatic art, theater, music, plays, songs, novels, or words; whatever the relationship, dramatics captures our immediate attention thereby invoking an instant response.  Dramatics affects our thoughts, emotions, or beliefs impacting us either negatively or positively.

However it affects our emotions, it can make an obvious and appreciable  even significant and perceptible difference in meaningful ways and enrich our lives.

 

 

 

 

 

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